Yesterday was full of reunions for me! In the morning I woke up early and got ready, then ventured out to pick up a couple girls I went to treatment with. The treatment center occasionally has conferences, and they were having one yesterday so we all rallied together and decided to go. I had to drive across multiple downs to get the girls, then all the way to downtown Detroit for the conference, but I didn’t mind! It was for the best. It was good to go back there and not actually be locked up. We got some pictures together! Had a blast. A little disappointed a couple of my other girls couldn’t go because of work, but at least they’re working!
There were a couple of girls who are back in the program due to relapse. It’s always sad to see, but at least they found their way back. They could’ve chosen not to come back, however they came back. The girls I went with both won turkeys in a raffle. I won this:
I cheated a little bit because the lady who used to be the head monitor told me to sit in the chair next to where I was sitting because it had the piece of paper under it. So, just like when I was in treatment, I followed her orders! (Also take note of my beautiful new sparkle Kate Spade bag. GORGEOUS!)
Then afterward I came home to feed my dog, let her out, then I went out again. This is where the second reunion came into place. I hung out with my ex boyfriend. The one who I haven’t seen since March, after he went to jail for crashing my car. We lived together for a while. We just ended up talking for about 4 hours which was kind of nice. I wanted to press him for a lot of unanswered questions I’ve had all this time, but I didn’t want to push him too hard so I refrained. Hopefully this will turn into a friendship and I’ll have time to get my answers. He did mention that after he went to jail and decided to move out and stop talking to me was because he just doesn’t know how to deal with shit. He still doesn’t. He was saying how he doesn’t know how to be “normal” because he will be 26 next month, and he has 6 felonies and 30 misdemeanors. He’s trying really hard to get his life back together, he’s just not sure how.
So, that’s that. My double reunion Saturday! Then once I got home I played with my pretty pup in the snow. Then again this morning. She fucking LOVES the snow. That’s pretty much the only joy I get out of winter, is watching her play in the snow. I snapped this cute pic after she went buck wild playing in it.
Also, another thing that happened yesterday is that my ex (good) has proven to me that good guys really don’t exist. Especially after you break up with them. They get mean. He pretty much told me I’m a whore, all my friends told him the night we met that I was a whore, and that he didn’t care because he just wanted to “hit it and quit it.” Which, I know isn’t true because he didn’t leave my fucking house for 4 days. Then he went on to say that he has “fucked pillows that were tighter than me.” I wanted to respond with, “YOU FUCK PILLOWS? WEIRDOOOO!!!!” But I refrained. I just proceeded to let him know I fucked someone else the day after we broke up. He then told me some girl was coming over last night to fuck him. I said great, I’m getting it in too. (Wasn’t true, but he didn’t need to know that!) This is coming from a really hateful place in his heart because I broke it. The thing is, normally I would care, but I just don’t. When you say mean things to me only to hurt my feelings, I usually just agree with them. “Oh yep, I’m a big whore! Whatever helps you sleep at night!” (That was one of my responses) It typically makes them even madder.