Insomnia

It’s 4:00 AM I’m wide awake again and I can’t sleep. I was supposed to be exhausted from not sleeping last night. I have shit to do today too. I’ll probably be sleeping in till like 1 PM, shower, go to secretary of state and wait around there for hours then come home and pass out. Ughhhh I’ve had insomnia for over 10 years. Being bipolar also keeps me super manic to the point where I can be up for days without sleeping. It’s so frustrating. 

   

  

….why Perhaps a little herbal refreshment.   

Counting Stars ***

4:00 and I’m wide awake, and this isn’t the real blog I have been meaning to post. But fuck, it’s Saturday. I’m by myself, I can’t sleep. Music is inspiring me. One of my SUPER old playlist was brought back into legacy mode for really old subscribers. I haven’t heard this song in forever. It’s kind of a sad song, but I kind of anticipate tomorrow is going to be a whirlwind of emotion.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oPrnrEnS45Q

(Sugarcult, “Counting Stars”)

Hey, I wanna crawl out of my skin
Apologize for all my sins
All the things I should have said to you
Hey, I can’t make it go away
Over and over in my brain again
All the things I should have said to you
Counting stars wishing I was okay
Crashing down was my biggest mistake
I never ever ever meant to hurt you
I only did what I had to
Counting stars again

Hey, I’ll take this day by day by day
Under the covers I’m okay I guess
Life’s too short and i feel small

Counting stars again
Counting stars again
Counting stars again
Counting stars again
Counting stars again

 

My music range goes all over the place. So I get inspired by anything. This spoke to me. It’s about 3:59, I have to get someone around 9ish, wake up at 8ish to shower then I have to have someone here and do repairs on my house all day. Joy. Maybe I’ll try and sleep. Maybe.

When I do go to bed tonight, (if I actually do) these are the kind of stars I’d like to see. Happy ones! Goodnight/good morning fellow bloggers. Like I said, a real post is coming tomorrow, technically today since it’s 4:11 AM on Saturday morning on the East cost so I promise you will get one from me!

 
These images are exactly why this blog is called by Happy Place. Even a couple images like that make me happy. They should just bring a little smile to your day too. The song I posted was a little deep but whatevs.